strangest angels dancing in the deepest oceans

Tue, 03 Oct 2006 04:33:54 GMT

new journal.
i came and looked at the entries.
everything that i wrote is not even who i am anymore.
it's so far from it.
so, new journal...

feel free to add it:

www.livejournal.com/savy_socialite

im letting go...

Thu, 22 Sep 2005 05:16:46 GMT

today was the first day i worked since last weds.
bah.
i hate it.
i was dreading going back all week.
not to mention: we were slow as fuck.

mallaurie picked me up from work.
i came home and changed than we went to the marketplace to have pizza.
came back to my house.
than went to zingo's to have ice cream and milkshakes with erik and kristine.

im gonna miss that goober.
i only have 3 more days left with him.

but he will be back for my birthday.
and i cant wait for that.

im tired of being here.
i wanna move forward.
i wanna be more sure...
there i am with you.
so take me on.
and move me forward.
and make me more sure of where i am with you.

just putting this on here...

Sun, 28 Aug 2005 08:51:19 GMT

i want the one on the top right.

Mon, 21 Mar 2005 23:42:35 GMT

i misses yous.

Sun, 06 Feb 2005 08:29:19 GMT

kent told me that hes moving back to ohio on the 24th.
that made me really sad.
im going to miss him.

i have to work 3:30-11:30 tomorrow.
shitty.

sometimes i just have one of those teeny bopper moments...

Sat, 22 Jan 2005 01:02:39 GMT

friday, feb. 25
$12
tsunami bomb, circa survive
@ jerry's pizza.

oh me. oh my.
do you even know how excited i am for this show?
it's been over a year since i've seen anthony green perform.
ill be counting down the days til this show, you can betcha.

today was more boring than usual.

Fri, 14 Jan 2005 05:27:24 GMT

my dads watching the true story of the exorcist.
how it happened in real life with a little boy.
ill be havin me some good dreams tonight.
sheesh.

nana and papa are coming down tomorrow,
and thanks to work, i wont be able to see chase's band play.

r.i.p.

Tue, 11 Jan 2005 01:03:05 GMT

cam,
i know me and you dont really hang out anymore,
but im very sorry for your loss.
its incredibly heartbreaking.
i remember at your party the baby was playing with everyone.
he was so adorable.
once again, im sorry.
theres really nothing else i can say...

bah humbug...

Sun, 26 Dec 2004 06:32:29 GMT

dear santa,
i was very dissapointed when i awoke this morning and he wasnt under my tree.
i have been good all year long too.

fuck you fatso,
savannah

sonny came up and gave me and autumn two free shirts. aww.

Sat, 11 Dec 2004 20:46:33 GMT

last night was fun.
i haven't had one of those in a long while.
i went to jerry's to see from first to last, emery, roses are red, and boys night out.
it was great to hang out with everyone.
it made me realize what i'd miss if i did move away like i want to.
im still contemplating the fact of moving though.
so who knows.

please be okay...

Thu, 02 Dec 2004 18:37:15 GMT

i dont know what happened.
i keep forgetting to breath cause i'm worrying so much.
please don't let what my gut is telling me the truth.

♥

yesterdays blurrrrrrr.

Thu, 02 Dec 2004 02:59:50 GMT

♥

what else can i say?

Tue, 30 Nov 2004 00:34:51 GMT

i just don't know nothing about anything anymore.

im not too fond of turkey, so all i ate was 3 rolls and cider.

Mon, 29 Nov 2004 01:08:53 GMT

Well Thanksgiving was its ol' boring self this year.
Shea came over after he ate at his mom's house.
He got a new tattoo the night before so we went to Rite-Aid to get him some cream to put on it.
I went to his house later that night with Chris, Autumn, and Chase.
I spent the night.
That was kinda a mistake cause I didn't sleep at all and I had to be at work at 11 for the busiest shopping day of the year.
I was beat.

Brittany came into town so I got to hang out with her the past couple of days which was really cool, cause I really missed her alot, and I'm glad that she got her shit together ever since she moved to Clovis.
We went to Shea's last night cause I bought him the TERROR shirt that I have at my work.
He liked it.

I got off of work today an hour and 15 minutes early.
score.

Shea hated my peppermint mocha, and I smoked alot today...

Wed, 24 Nov 2004 06:32:03 GMT

Shea called and woke me up at 9:30 this morning, and said that he was going to come over.
He told me the night before that he was, but not that early.
So I said okay, and fell back asleep, and re-awoke when he rang my doorbell.
I answered it, than went back into my room.
We layed there for a long while, talking.
Than we decided to go to Taco Bell.
After Taco Bell, we went to Starbucks, than to Lowes so he could get a peep hole for his door.
We came back to my house for a bit, than he had to leave.

Tonight me and Courtney went to the Salvation Army, where I got two new kick ass shirts, than to the dollar store, than met my mom at Sorrella's for dinner.
After we ate, my mom took me to World Records cause the CD I ordered last week came in.

All in all...
today was a great day.
Finally.

my mom and sister seen the hickey on my neck, i blamed it on my straightener, they didn't buy it...

Mon, 22 Nov 2004 01:41:58 GMT

Last night me, Mel, Sarah, and Geoff all went to the dollar theatre to see Napoleon Dynamite.
I adore that movie.

And still, I adore him.
And miss him more and more as each day goes by.
More than anything and everything.
How long can I pretend that this whole "friends" thing will work?
I honestly don't know.
I love him so much, and I know he feels the same.
He says we'll be together again, someday soon.
But should I just sit here and wait, and brush all these other boys off my shoulders?
I don't think that's fair.
But God, I'd do anything for him.

Love just sucks sometimes.

I Just Wanna Clear One Thing Up!

Sat, 20 Nov 2004 03:43:36 GMT

FROM MEL'S JOURNAL...

myonededication (myonededication) wrote,
@ 2004-11-18 00:12:00

Current mood: horny
Current music: The Used- Hard to say!

Blast from the past! LAME!!!! LOL

Well, today I hung out with Kacie (we were so hungover), then went with my mom to some beauty places, and OMG

I fucking tried to strip the black out of my hair and it changed red and then faded back to black...i'm sooo fucking pissed off. I fried my hair for no fucking reason...OMGGGG....I couldn't be more pissed right now....

I had to wear a shower cap on my head for 5 hours b/c i had to leave that shit in to get all the black out. I looked so fucking retarded. And sanna made me drive her happy ass around wearing it. But it is ok b/c she hadn't showered and had no makeup on and smelt like ______ N E Ways I won't say..LOL

We hung out til prolly 10pm and I had a great time just talking and bullshiting with her, That pie we ate in like 1 minute was FAB!!! OMG you don't even know.

I love her so much.........

But YAH I feel really girlie......woot woot.

PEACE!!!!

All of that shit for nothing....what the FUCK!!!

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

From: cutawaythehurt
Subject:
Message:

cutawaythehurt
2004-11-19 19:31 (link)

SEX!
Come on! Just Say It!
I Smelled Like Sex!
Rough, Hardcore, Booty spankin, On The Rug Porn SEX!
And It Was Good.

♥

And I Think You're The Best Person Ever As Well!<3

Sat, 20 Nov 2004 03:35:43 GMT

I'm really dissapointed in someone.
Someone who said that they would always be there for me.
And when I really do need you, you break your promise.
It's like, oh God, now what in the hell am I going to do?!!!??
Well worry for about a month is one thing.
Fuck.
She just really pisses me off.

Nothing seems to be going very well lately.
As you can read.
I hope I pull out of this slump very soon.

Tonight: Downtown... no bar. : (

I Just Don't Want To Wait Forever...

Mon, 15 Nov 2004 20:26:35 GMT

I went and seen heavy heavy low low, and nevea tears last night.
My little sister Autumn, and her mom, who's one of those hip/cool/listens to good music/ and goes to shows kind of moms, came and got me.
I brought black velvet with me and we went to fast trips to get fountain drinks.
Her mom got vodka for them.

Shea and Brandon met us down there. After a while we walked to the bar, but Terry wasn't there,
so I just went pee, and we left.

I went with Chris to the store, got some more whisky, and met Shea and Brandon at their house.
I drank a little bit more.
And me and Chris left.

Nothing too exciting went on last night, but I had fun.

Last night I thought about quitting drinking, and smoking.
Than I thought about it some more,
and decided not to.

You Announced It To Everyone... Even My Sister.

Sun, 14 Nov 2004 05:55:54 GMT

Last night was lovely.
Gave me hope.
I Love You. Boo.♥

Why Do All These Damn Songs Remind Me Of You?!

Fri, 12 Nov 2004 22:06:29 GMT

Of all the things I've believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by

I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
It feels like I'm starting all over again
The last months were just pretend
And I said,

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything that I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right

And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you
But I'm not giving in this time

And when the stars fall
I will lie awake
You're my shooting star♥

So I Guess My Ass Looks Good In Spandex....

Fri, 12 Nov 2004 01:29:59 GMT

Autumn and Andrew picked me up from work last night.
We went to Ben Dover's for the show.
The Warriors and Donny Brook both cancelled.
But the show was still awesome.
Side note: slam dancers turn me on. Alot.

Shea and Brandon met me down there, and we walked to the bar cause Mel and Jen were there.
$12= 2 pitchers of Bud Light.
I love not being straight edge.

I got drunk. It was great. Kacie showed up so we went to Shea's band practice for a little bit, then we all went back to the bar.

I passed out in Kacie's backseat while listening to the country music station.
First song that came on?
...a song about shooting stars.♥

I took that as a sign. A good sign.
And the night was going wonderful.
I was happy.
So happy.
I hope everything turns out well.

And I'm glad that you, Mel, had a good time!

I must be going... Mel wants to get on, and she's having an orgasm while looking at My Chemical Romance in AP.

Tonight: SILVER FOX!....duh.
And we need to make it a point to dress skanky... cause I'm broke. : )

This Goes Out To A Couple Of Boys...

Wed, 10 Nov 2004 20:41:16 GMT

Why can't guys see something great when it's starring them right in the fucking face?
Look at her.
She's beautiful.
She would do anything and everything for you.
Do you expect her to wait around till you get your head straight?
Do you honestly think that no other guys see what you see in her?
You're in for a reality check very soon.

It's a shame that we have to go through this together.
I love you with all my heart Mel.♥

Tell them lies and they will believe you.
When you're honest they will decieve you.
If you play them they will stay with you.
But if you love them they will just leave you.

im sneeze still sneeze madly in LOVE sneeze with you!

Tue, 09 Nov 2004 07:53:46 GMT

I just found out like five minutes ago that this boy I was completely gaga over earlier this year is now engaged.
I think it's awesome.
I hope the best for him.

Work was pretty much dead today, well for the three hours I was there it was.
I bought Terror's cd today, and Blondies greatest hits.

As each moment passes I'm getting sicker and sicker.
I just sneezed five times in a row.
Cute, eh?

Atleast I have tomorrow off...